This journey has went beyond all of my expectations. I have shared a lot of laughs, learned many things from other artists, and made many wonderful friends. We have built a community of some amazingly generous, loving and gifted artists. I feel truly blessed to be a part of this growing family. Yet, as with any community, there are a few kinks.
Over 80 recordings later (and a few that didn't record) I have been forced to take a stand. I streamed a class on New Years Day. At the beginning of this show I went over the new rules I felt was necessary to assure a positive, enjoyable show for everyone. I had been getting feedback that viewers were being turned away from my show due to the behavior of others. I could not let that trend continue. It was causing extra stress in my life as well as hurt and stress in others.
Unfortunately, a few people did not want to respect my wish for a fun, positive experience. A few decided to erode the community by spewing hateful, untrue statements on Twitter about myself, my show, my mods and my friends. A few people continued to ignore my wish of no advertising, derogatory religious or political statements, or soliciting. My wonderful moderators acted on my desires for my show. Again, this has caused an outburst of hateful, untrue statements.
Throughout all of this "drama" I have tried very hard to take the "high road". To ignore these irrational statements, to state the truth in all I do. As I have said before, I have been an open book. I post journal pages that have REAL journaling, I put myself out there live twice a week, I believe in showing my true self, with my true obstacles. I am a real person with worries, stress, a 50 hour a week day job, a man, 2 cats and a bunch of love.
After having been attacked by trollz and having my friends be attacked by trollz, I have been thinking about whether all the effort of streaming is worth it. Was I doing to much? Have I been putting myself out there too much? Have I let myself become too vulnerable? It has taken a few days, and lots of written pages in my journal to come up with an answer. It was a huge NO. I will NOT let a few negative people ruin an entire community of WONDERFUL people. I will NOT let these few people stop me from doing what I love, and assuring my vision is intact. I will NOT allow these lies to affect me any longer.
I truly appreciate all the love, support and emails from all of you. YOU make this journey enjoyable and a true blessing in my life. I look forward to growing this community of wonderful, supportive artists. Thank you so much for enjoying the ride with me.
PS, I have not named names or quoted the hateful, untrue remarks. If you want to know the truth, my email is always open.